I’ve been a Star Wars fan since I was barely 13, and became an Expanded Universe fan only days later. My entire experience of falling in love with Star Wars was prompted and is because of the Expanded Universe; I ‘first’ saw the movies on VHS over Christmas break in 1991. And we wouldn’t have even had those copies in the house if not for the release of Heir to the Empire in the spring of that year.
I owe my entire fandom to and the Thrawn trilogy. The Expanded Universe, which was pretty much all there was back in those days, formed the nucleus of my fandom. They hooked me, and they hooked me well enough that I sit here, 22 years later, running a fairly popular blog devoted to the franchise, with those same worn copies of Heir, Dark Force Rising and The Last Command not four feet away.
I love the Expanded Universe. It’s a weird kind of love that you get with this sort of fandom; I kept with it through some of the absolute worst fiction I have ever read, and many books that could I barely bring myself to call mediocre and, yes, even those rare gems that make it all worth it.
But I’m also okay with letting it go.
"Boba Fett didn’t die in ROTJ."
To be honest, I hadn’t planned to write more about Wookieepedia’s page on breasts. I’m already on record as disapproving, twice. Outrage fatigue happens even to the outraged, and quite honestly I don’t have the temperament or patience to continue to explain Feminism 101 to this fandom.
But the page and one of the responses ended up on Tumblr – one of those areas of fandom where you do actually see female majorities in many circles – and I remembered why it’s important that we keep speaking out. Read more…
So I logged into the Wook and have been looking around (just looking, b/c if I’m not even allowed to edit my own userpage I doubt they’ll let any other edits stand, even if I stay well away from the breast crap) at some of the stuff I did back in ‘07, when I was an active user.
The fan fiction page? The one I did a ton of work on? Gone. Redirects to fanon now. One thing I was interested in was creating pages about fandom things (in the spirit of Fanlore, which wasn’t around back then) but it became increasingly clear that the community wasn’t at all interested in that sort of thing, and I just wasn’t up to fighting tooth-and-nail for it. So… I just stopped. Why bother? I had my own site to worry about, and I’ve never been particularly fond of fandoming under other people’s nonsensical rules.
It’s only gotten worse since then, clearly. The Wook is a wonderful site, in theory; pity that it seems to be run less from a place of common sense and basic empathy than one of ‘because we can.’
I’ve been doing a lot of digging through the internet for stuff to post on this blog, and I came across this old article from tosche-station. At one point Kevin J. Anderson, the author of a metric crap ton of Star Wars books, says:
"If you look back at it, Luke…
If I dive into this, I’ll never get out, but I wouldn’t read too much into it. This was a really, REALLY big thing in the 90s and there was a lot of confusion about it with the authors and publisher being given conflicting instructions or none at all. There was very little coordination, control, or continuity in those days.
IIRC, the origin of this was the long-held assumption that Jedi were celibate. This MAY have been (Because George Says) BGS and/or it may have been fear of contradicting AOTC and Anakin and Padme’s secret marriage. Or all of the above.
KJA created this whole mantra in his books about how, there is no passion, there is no desire, there is only the Force. A lot of readers at the time were all, uhhh, whut? Where did Luke and Leia come from then? The principle was always being eroded in the other EU books of the Bantam-Spectra-Scholastic era — eventually Hambly did have permission to give Luke the love of his life, Callista, who was in a computer and it led to virtual reality sex and body snatching — so weird. The TPM Visual Dictionary identified one of the Jedi on the Council as having a wife (and maybe 2) and that was the only proof that pre-Rebellion Jedi could have romantic attachments and Qui Gon had a romantic thing with the Jedi Tahl in the Jedi Apprentice books.
Even when AOTC was being scripted, and Luke did end up marrying Mara Jade, I think the Union comic was still ambiguous about whether Jedi could marry. One interpretation was that Jedi could have sex, but couldn’t have any emotional attachment.
I have no idea how this is all dealt with now, but then, it was all over the place. I would definitely not assume that anyone who was driving the bus at the time had any sensitivity to or awareness of any gender issues, asexuality, or anything else. It was all het and traditional marriage and maybe not even that.
The Problem With The Big Bang Theory…
I’ve been meaning to post something about The Big Bang Theory for a while now but it’s taken me ‘till now to really understand what it is about the show that makes me uncomfortable. I’m not exactly a believer in the whole “only write about the things you like, don’t trash the things you don’t” trend which seems to be plaguing comments sections in negative articles lately, but I wanted to be able to really examine why I don’t like TBBT rather than just slagging it off. My main questions being - Why don’t I like this anymore? Why do I feel uncomfortable watching it? And why do I get so annoyed when I see people sing its praises online? The thing which really sparked this post was seeing a raft of comments on Facebook, below the last round of voting in Television Without Pity’s Tubey Awards, claiming The Big Bang Theory to be “the best comedy on TV”. This made me angry so instead of posting an impulsive comment calling out their bad taste which I’d probably regret later, I decided to really analyse why seeing comments like that made me so mad when previously, although I didn’t really love the show, I’d never considered myself as disliking The Big Bang Theory.
Hell, I even have season one on dvd, it’s sitting right between Battlestar Galactica and Bored To Death in my alphabetised collection.
And here, I think, is where my problem with The Big Bang Theory lies…
In light of today’s news… I mean, I can’t really blame Lucasfilm for pairing up with The Big Bang Theory - as the biggest of the ‘nerd’ shows it’s a total no-brainer for all involved - but I’ve always felt uncomfortable watching BBT and this post perfectly articulates why. (Hell, I’m a bit shocked Disney let them go to another network to begin with, though I suppose it’ll work out for everyone in the long run…)
My journey as a Star Wars Expanded Universe fan
In GIFs, because why the fuck not. Take us away, vodka.
if youre ever under the impression that your fandom cant be that bad just go on its confessions blog and watch everything you love fall apart before your eyes
If you go to your fandom confessions blog and not a single thing there surprises you, you may have been in fandom way, way too long.